Well its been a while since I posted. I am back now.
I had an ongoing medical problem that ended with emergency surgery.
It has been a few weeks and I am finally back on my feet. The recovery has gone smoothly but having weeks of limited activities takes it’s toll on one’s mind.
It took two weeks to get over the effects of the anesthesia. My mind was in a fog and I had trouble putting my thoughts together.
I have a nice 4 inch scar and have to watch what I do. It’s now 6 weeks after surgery and I am starting to be more active.
Surgery was a bit of a shock when I had to give my weight. I thought it was 285. I was more shocked to come home step on the scale and find out I was 300. This is the heaviest I have ever been. I don’t know how I let my weight get so out of control.
Yesterday I took a trip to my local shopping mall. As I was walking through a sporting goods store I saw my reflection in a few different mirrors and I was shocked at my appearance. I didn’t recognize the body that was in front of me. I was absolutely floored and I think for the first time saw what others saw.
I got so used to seeing just a part of me at a time. My face and neck or my chest and arms or my legs.
It’s horrifying I have done this to my body. That trip to McDonald’s just one time that turns into 4 trips in one week, those sugary coffee drinks, that extra butter on a roll. I would always tell myself just once more. This is my last treat. All the excuses I told myself.
As a result of surgery I have been on a low fat, low sugar, high fibre diet. It’s been rough keeping to it. To actually think about the food I am ingesting not as a treat but merely as fuel.
The hardest part has been making sure I am eating protein, cutting down on the carbs and increasing my vegetables.
My usual breakfast since surgery has been a zucchini bran muffins, one egg, half and apple, half a banana and half a cup of probiotic yogurt.
For lunch homemade soup.
Supper chicken breast and vegetables.
It does get a little tiring eating the same thing each day but I have gotten into a habit with the preparation.
I do have a few substitutes like making a smoothie for breakfast and a hard boiled egg or fish instead of chicken for supper. I might change up the seasonings.
In doing this, although I am less active I have lost about 12-15 lbs in 6 weeks. For my weight this is a healthy weight loss.
I know it’s not all about numbers on a scale but I tell you even after losing 15 lbs seeing my “slimmer” self in the mirror at the sporting goods store I couldn’t see the slimmer self.
I have more energy and I can see small differences such as I can fit my fingers of one hand around my opposite wrist.
This is a painful and slow process. I am hoping to keep up my progress and add to it as I heal more. I hope not to backslide as I have so many times before.
Now you have the hard truth from me, I am publishing numbers from a scale that I am ashamed of but those are my true numbers.